When it's cold outside.

School's such a drag.

Sometimes i wonder if i'm very cynical by nature, but doesn't that mean i'm at least aware of the negative ramifications of situations, which will not make me plunge into a well of self-denial or delusion?

Okay a random survey!

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. (no, i don't think i'm friendly to everybody. but i'm very friendly and open if you are!)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. (true) Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you've found that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. (yes i agree i'm straightforward but it's not really a positive thing all the time)

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy. (yes, this two sentences are true. but the first actually brings me down cos my goals tend to deviate and waver frequently)

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. (yes, i'm very afraid of failure. aren't you?)

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. (sigh, very true) This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. (v exaggerated) It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. (oh c'mon, this is easier said than done)

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. (yes, it is v erratic) You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

I miss the waves. Those waves crashing on the shores, with such vigour and force, yet subtle and innocent. Mysteriously haunting, silently calling out.

looking around

heads turned
yet faceless