I've got no excuse.

Okay i just deleted an entry cos it's angsty and what i needed was just a platform to voice them out, and it doesn't necessarily have to be published.

Hard times don't come until tomorrow
These eyes don't see
Take your skin off when you listen to me
Move away

Would you like to be my sandbag for me to vent my frustrations at?

Would you like to play second fiddle to my emotions and pander to my whines and desires?

Life's greatest realisations- You always want what you can never have.

I need to be much more diligent, at least for the next four months.

Actually, it really wonders me. Like how geniuses those kids from top jcs can be but still, they mug like there's no tomorrow. But, we don't study as hard even though it's blatantly obvious that we're not as smart.

I guess it all boils down to how much we all want something out of life. How much we really want to achieve our dreams, our goals and ambitions.

And i crumble upon this very fact, because at 18, i'm still clueless. I'm still floating on an unsteady terrain, wandering aimlessly.

Psychologist; a job that i promulgate to everyone, the one that i'll venture into in the future, doesn't really appeal to me anymore.

Then what?

I don't know.

It's not doing me justice either because i don't feel inspired to really bury myself in those books. And i'm the kind that needs something to push and propel me forward or else, i'll remain stagnant.

I need to get it clearly sorted out before it's too late and the dark clouds lay above.

On a lighter note, I remembered Miss Wong's exact words which went the lines of 'You don't really have to worry about what you wanna be because with a good A level certificate, you can do anything that you want. "

How apt. And idealistic.

The latter's not cool at all.