with hope

unless im thinking otherwise, but at times like these i really don't handle my words well. knowing exactly what to say to make the other person feel better, is a tough job. i wish i just knew how to reach right into their hearts, wave a magic wand and make all those horrid problems go away. i don't seem to be able to pick the right wrds though. and it is at these moments when i choose to remain quiet, remaining just as a someone to whom they can pour out their troubles to. most of the time its because i can't relate, because being in my place now i have no right to make comments such as 'i know how you feel' seeing how that would be a blatant lie. its completely different the way i see things, i wish i were more mature in many ways. when i come across too direct the words really sting. if i were to voice my deepest inner truest opinions out, it would startle many. i don't want to always have to whisper my thoughts through a one-way radio. perhaps one day i'd be brave enough to tell them how i really feel and let everyone know i'm not as strong as i wish i could be, that i might smile but inside im breaking.