You can be a miracle, yourself.

As you may or may not know, prelims are over! I don't know if i should rejoice and feel eggcited over it, because the truth is, i don't.

I know i've not put in my best, and i do feel a tinge of regret.

I had a long conversation with a good friend, atiqah ho xy, before chem paper 1, and i recalled this phrase which she said, ''I hate regrets. I'd rather give my all and know that i've done my best. Even if things don't work out, i'm satisfied."

Aww how i wish i have that power within me to mutter those words. And, i obviously don't, at the moment.

I really really really hope i'll give my everything for As because doing well means a whole world to me.

I don't mind if it takes away my freedom, time, soul, anything. I don't mind if it robs me of my fantasies, desires, anything. I don't mind if i have to sacrifice this, that, you-name-me-anything.

I just want As(i don't mind Bs too!) because that's all that matter now. And, i never, ever want to live in regret because i don't think i can ever stomach that risk.

Oh God, help me )))):

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So after the last paper, i went to Sentosa with jerm sal and yuan! It's like a ghost town at night, but it's pretty serene and tranquil. We all concurred that it was a vv fun outing :D (and sal is the awesome photographer for the pictures)

in a place where
everything is transient
and ever-changing

a veil unleashes its torrent



because we can't afford to seek refuge anymore
nothing's safe and secure,

not even the old cupboard; your hiding place when you were young

or the blankets; because the darkness evades you

like an innocent child with plaids,
grow a seed which blossoms

and let it grow
without the murky waters

let it shine
with an exterior so strong

impervious and hard;
your saviour



Love you guys!

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I'm excited for tomorrow(more to later) cos i'll be going to the gym followed by a swimming session! And, i'm still fasting yo so that makes it a challenge but i'll persevere and endure and i swear i won't break my fast earlier than the stipulated time.

My elder bro is a joke. He was asking me to help him with his poetry essay for his lit assignment. It was something about mortality and he wanted me to make it more analytical.

I didn't really dare to help much because 1) it's University level 2) i've never taken lit ever, except when i was in sec 1 and 2 and it was compulsory 3) i only understood one poem(which i thought was v interesting) 4) i don't want to sound stupid 5) i'm not good full stop.

I can't wait for mondayyyyy, movie and shopping with lovely jerm one of the bestest friends on earth, love you babe! :D