Hello i think my attendance record this year is pretty tarnished cos of stupid reasons like ''omg today's like boring and school's worse", "sigh what a heavy rain, so must sleep in", "oh damn i'm late okay back to sleep", "home's more productive hurhurhur".
And i think i need to STOP being late for like other things besides school, i really don't remember when i was early or on time. And being late is not 5-15 minutes kind tsktsk.
Okay i've been watching jdma episodes online like crazy i should stop wasting my time.
off to do some work kbye
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
2 cents' worth.
I blatantly know how we're all caught up in a mirage which really is nothing like what's out there in the real world.
Sometimes i compare myself with others outside our social realm and feel very much smaller. Sometimes i find myself thinking that, maybe all that we're worrying about is stupid and insignificant.
There are larger problems out there to be addressed, and we're here getting all anxious and worried about trivial matters. I know how selfish we all are because we don't see beyond ourselves.
Basically everything is done for our own advantage, to cater to our own needs first and foremost.
I guess that's how we armour ourselves to survive.
Sometimes i compare myself with others outside our social realm and feel very much smaller. Sometimes i find myself thinking that, maybe all that we're worrying about is stupid and insignificant.
There are larger problems out there to be addressed, and we're here getting all anxious and worried about trivial matters. I know how selfish we all are because we don't see beyond ourselves.
Basically everything is done for our own advantage, to cater to our own needs first and foremost.
I guess that's how we armour ourselves to survive.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Awesome.
I was just writing in my previous entry a few hours ago about how clueless i am about my future prospects. Like i definitely don't want to work my way towards the a's thinking that the core reasons driving my effort are dumb ones.
And i was praying, hoping that He'll help me figure out this soon cos i need an aim, a motivation, just something to keep me going.
Lo and behold, I tell you, He's amazing.
Soon after, i was chatting with an old good friend whom i've not talked to for ages. And suddenly, he was asking me about my career options(of all things).
Of course, like 67859432321 of my replies, i'll say, "I DON'T KNOW."
Then, he started giving me advices and options based on my interests. I voiced out my grouses and bugbears but eventually, those worries slowly diminish.
I can bravely admit now that it's all pretty much sorted out. I know what i want!
Thank you, Allah.
And i was praying, hoping that He'll help me figure out this soon cos i need an aim, a motivation, just something to keep me going.
Lo and behold, I tell you, He's amazing.
Soon after, i was chatting with an old good friend whom i've not talked to for ages. And suddenly, he was asking me about my career options(of all things).
Of course, like 67859432321 of my replies, i'll say, "I DON'T KNOW."
Then, he started giving me advices and options based on my interests. I voiced out my grouses and bugbears but eventually, those worries slowly diminish.
I can bravely admit now that it's all pretty much sorted out. I know what i want!
Thank you, Allah.
A plea.
I think i've learnt so much more in pj than in anywhere else, things are not as plain as they are, not as simple as they appear to be.
But i'm lovin' it.
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I really hope i'll figure out what i want to do in life LIKE VERY SOON cos i don't want to work my ass off for something i'm not quite sure of.
God, i need Your help.
But i'm lovin' it.
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I really hope i'll figure out what i want to do in life LIKE VERY SOON cos i don't want to work my ass off for something i'm not quite sure of.
God, i need Your help.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
But then again, maybe it's better this way.
Looking at how C puts in so much effort for her IS is crazy. I think KI kills too much of her brain cells.
But then again, maybe it's better this way.
If i'd go to other schools, maybe having overachieving peers would just plunge me into depression.
But then again, maybe it's not better this way.
I don't know what i want.
But then again, maybe it's not better this way.
I think i can't do this, i think i cannot, i think i can't do this, i think i cannot.
I think i'll really kill myself if i don't feel prepared for As. I really think i will.
THERE'S SO MUCH THINGS TO DO ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SCREW YOU ^%&*()(*&^%$^&*((*&^%$%^&*(*&^%^&*(*&^%^&*( omg i hate this ttm.
Looking at how C puts in so much effort for her IS is crazy. I think KI kills too much of her brain cells.
But then again, maybe it's better this way.
If i'd go to other schools, maybe having overachieving peers would just plunge me into depression.
But then again, maybe it's not better this way.
I don't know what i want.
But then again, maybe it's not better this way.
I think i can't do this, i think i cannot, i think i can't do this, i think i cannot.
I think i'll really kill myself if i don't feel prepared for As. I really think i will.
THERE'S SO MUCH THINGS TO DO ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SCREW YOU ^%&*()(*&^%$^&*((*&^%$%^&*(*&^%^&*(*&^%^&*( omg i hate this ttm.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
I'm vvv incoherent.
Hello world you're probably snoring away, snuggling your smelly pillows tightly with some Superhero pjs.
Tsktsk i just ended an awesome MSN conversation with an old friend and i'm still as high.
Like hello, so much for sleeping early cos i'm still not well, talk only ah. I swear i need to eradicate this stupid mindset of talk-only-no-actions like vvvv soon.
Sigh, how i wish i've a good book right nowwwww, i can't sleep and it's like freaking 3 am. I still have school tmr lehhhhhhh. How?
Okay i really hope mad mugging session starts with effect from tmr till the big As. Oh God, give me the determination and perseverance and moreeeeeeeeee useful brain cells please.
I need them, desperately.
Tsktsk i just ended an awesome MSN conversation with an old friend and i'm still as high.
Like hello, so much for sleeping early cos i'm still not well, talk only ah. I swear i need to eradicate this stupid mindset of talk-only-no-actions like vvvv soon.
Sigh, how i wish i've a good book right nowwwww, i can't sleep and it's like freaking 3 am. I still have school tmr lehhhhhhh. How?
Okay i really hope mad mugging session starts with effect from tmr till the big As. Oh God, give me the determination and perseverance and moreeeeeeeeee useful brain cells please.
I need them, desperately.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Unlock the door.
I'm still running a temperature. And i think it got worse as compared to yesterday boohoo. Swim-then-gym plan had to be cancelled bleargh so not cool.
I'm feeling melancholic. And, relatively indifferent. Prelims results are gonna be released tomorrow and i don't expect anything, nor do i want to expect anything.
I think as you grow and mature, you tend to take things in your stride. Like come whatever, you'll just accept reality and move on with life.
It's like everyone's surging forward and you can't help but to go with the flow. Otherwise, you risk falling behind; plunging yourself into an abyss of darkness and uncertainties.
You have two choices. 1) Ride along with it 2) Be engulfed by it's calamitous repercussions
The choice is yours.
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Anyway jerm and i caught 'Mamma Mia' yesterday! It's pretty good if you ask me.
The plot's pretty brainless but then again, the music and casts are awesome and that totally made up for the lack of brainpower to create an interesting plot. HAHAHA.
I loveeeeeeeeeee the music like seriously, i'm a number one ABBA fan now. And seriously, straight after i came back yesterday, i went to Youtube to relive the wonderful ABBA experience by watching her music vids incessantly.
Even though it's like super classic and all but who gives a hoot about that? Her music's good stuff man.
Okay and we basically toured on every single shop that sells dresses cos jermaine wants to get one and she was adamant on getting the type that she wants which are apparently not aplenty hahaha but it was fun with our good old times of jokes and stories to share :D
And the best part was she did not get any cos ''they're just not the kind she wants'' hahaha but being a fastidious shopper myself, i understand her plight and willingly trudge the whole of far east(literally) and wisma and tangs!
I didn't shop cos i was grouchy and lazy. And it's one of those times when you have the bucks but you don't know what to buy tsktsk.
Okay i need to like sleep early cos like i'm still sick and i need ample rest. I think today's like the only day i'm at home the whole day for post-prelims hols, i just realised.
And tmr is the start of something very torturous with a lot of suffering and trauma. A's like gonna be here vvvv soon, endure endure endure i can do this i can do this i can do this.
I'm feeling melancholic. And, relatively indifferent. Prelims results are gonna be released tomorrow and i don't expect anything, nor do i want to expect anything.
I think as you grow and mature, you tend to take things in your stride. Like come whatever, you'll just accept reality and move on with life.
It's like everyone's surging forward and you can't help but to go with the flow. Otherwise, you risk falling behind; plunging yourself into an abyss of darkness and uncertainties.
You have two choices. 1) Ride along with it 2) Be engulfed by it's calamitous repercussions
The choice is yours.
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Anyway jerm and i caught 'Mamma Mia' yesterday! It's pretty good if you ask me.
The plot's pretty brainless but then again, the music and casts are awesome and that totally made up for the lack of brainpower to create an interesting plot. HAHAHA.
I loveeeeeeeeeee the music like seriously, i'm a number one ABBA fan now. And seriously, straight after i came back yesterday, i went to Youtube to relive the wonderful ABBA experience by watching her music vids incessantly.
Even though it's like super classic and all but who gives a hoot about that? Her music's good stuff man.
Okay and we basically toured on every single shop that sells dresses cos jermaine wants to get one and she was adamant on getting the type that she wants which are apparently not aplenty hahaha but it was fun with our good old times of jokes and stories to share :D
And the best part was she did not get any cos ''they're just not the kind she wants'' hahaha but being a fastidious shopper myself, i understand her plight and willingly trudge the whole of far east(literally) and wisma and tangs!
I didn't shop cos i was grouchy and lazy. And it's one of those times when you have the bucks but you don't know what to buy tsktsk.
Okay i need to like sleep early cos like i'm still sick and i need ample rest. I think today's like the only day i'm at home the whole day for post-prelims hols, i just realised.
And tmr is the start of something very torturous with a lot of suffering and trauma. A's like gonna be here vvvv soon, endure endure endure i can do this i can do this i can do this.
We can.
Monday, September 22, 2008
HI i need to rant.
I'm running a temperature. ):
Straight after i got back(like, just only), i gulped down a 1.5 litre bottle of plain water cos i think i'm dehydrated. I'm praying and hoping that i'll be fine tmr so that i can go to the gym and swimming after that with the same gang.
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Yesterday's worst trauma is over! Man, i hate geylang and words totally cannot justify my immense hatred and enmity for it. HAHA there's no scale to measure the hate-meter whatsoever, it's just beyond what can be measured in the universe.
I'M LITERALLY EUPHORIC THAT I'LL ONLY HAVE TO GO THROUGH THAT TRAUMA ONCE IN A YEAR. Tsk, talking of which, i'm not excited for hari raya at all omgz.
I think only the forgiving part's awesome. Like okay hari raya = more money? That part's cool too. Other than that, it's total crap.
Hari raya = see relatives? NOT COOL. I think it's damn fake and irrelevant to a very large extent. This is what we do for a normal house-visiting session.
1) Arrive house, hi everyone(hur hur hi huh?)
2) Sit down.
3) Eat.
4) Watch tv.
5) MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
6) Continue watching tv.
7) Okay time to go off, collect green packets.
8) BYE.
Wooo, i can totally see that we're all bonding and exchanging stories and updating each other on our life and like totally having a ball of a time. Tell me about it man.
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Oh before geylang, my sister and i went to do our hair! Her hairstylist did my hair while my sister's hair was being shampooed by another hairstylist.
Her hairstylist has such strong and firm hands till like when she massages my scalp, i felt like escaping to LaLa land. She was v meticulous and took notice of nitty-gritty details and together with her excellent service, it was all worth it.
And anyway, my sister's fiance's sister followed us to geylang and she's extremely funny and comical i swear she's a joker. And her son's vvv cute wah confirm guarantee plus chop when he grows up, he'll be damn good-looking.
Okay i've just realised that i went out on every single post-prelim hols and i did not touch a single A level-related thing i swear. Good game, man. Good game.
Straight after i got back(like, just only), i gulped down a 1.5 litre bottle of plain water cos i think i'm dehydrated. I'm praying and hoping that i'll be fine tmr so that i can go to the gym and swimming after that with the same gang.
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Yesterday's worst trauma is over! Man, i hate geylang and words totally cannot justify my immense hatred and enmity for it. HAHA there's no scale to measure the hate-meter whatsoever, it's just beyond what can be measured in the universe.
I'M LITERALLY EUPHORIC THAT I'LL ONLY HAVE TO GO THROUGH THAT TRAUMA ONCE IN A YEAR. Tsk, talking of which, i'm not excited for hari raya at all omgz.
I think only the forgiving part's awesome. Like okay hari raya = more money? That part's cool too. Other than that, it's total crap.
Hari raya = see relatives? NOT COOL. I think it's damn fake and irrelevant to a very large extent. This is what we do for a normal house-visiting session.
1) Arrive house, hi everyone(hur hur hi huh?)
2) Sit down.
3) Eat.
4) Watch tv.
5) MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
6) Continue watching tv.
7) Okay time to go off, collect green packets.
8) BYE.
Wooo, i can totally see that we're all bonding and exchanging stories and updating each other on our life and like totally having a ball of a time. Tell me about it man.
----
Oh before geylang, my sister and i went to do our hair! Her hairstylist did my hair while my sister's hair was being shampooed by another hairstylist.
Her hairstylist has such strong and firm hands till like when she massages my scalp, i felt like escaping to LaLa land. She was v meticulous and took notice of nitty-gritty details and together with her excellent service, it was all worth it.
And anyway, my sister's fiance's sister followed us to geylang and she's extremely funny and comical i swear she's a joker. And her son's vvv cute wah confirm guarantee plus chop when he grows up, he'll be damn good-looking.
Okay i've just realised that i went out on every single post-prelim hols and i did not touch a single A level-related thing i swear. Good game, man. Good game.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Between the trees.
If you're my good friend, you're prolly aware that i really, really want a hot bod cos i think it's the sexiest thing on earth h e e h e e.
And you'll also be sick and tired of how i always proclaim that i have a hot bod when we all know i don't hahahahaha.
Okay give me time, i'll achieve my aim i promise.
With that, i sincerely hope i'll be a gym junkie after As. Gosh this sounds extremely exciting. OMG JUST THE THOUGHT OF LIKE WASHBOARD ABS AND LIKE A BIG CHEST AND LIKE NICE, BIG BICEPS ON MYYYYYYYYYYYY BODY IS INVIGORATING I SWEAR okay sorry this sounds gross but can you feel my excitement! HAHA.
But i do not ever want to be like those guys who are extremely big because c'mon, that is disgusting dude. Just toned, muscular but proportional please.
Hahahaha okay enough i shall divert to another topic!
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Today's a good day! A fulfilling gym session with leah and jack and it was awesomezz cos like i think i did quite a lot and learnt alot of new stuffs.
After that, gx came and we went swimming! Leah left earlier cos she had a family dinner which started at like FOUR pm. Omgz who the hell eats dinner at 4 manzz her grandparents the best hahaha.
Swimming was fantabulous cos we had the pool to ourselves! Then i went to break fast and we had a nice talking session afterwhich!
Okay an account of a person's day is extremely not interesting you're probably drooling now TSKTSK
Any-o-way, tmr is extremely not exciting because i'm going to geylang to get stuffs for hari raya. I HATE THAT PLACE TO THE MAX, WORST PLACE EVER I SWEAR.
Bleargh but before that, my sister's gonna do her hair at the normal salon cos she has her own personal hairstylist. And she agreed to sponsor me for a haircut there (:
Okay i think i should get some sleep laterssssss.
And you'll also be sick and tired of how i always proclaim that i have a hot bod when we all know i don't hahahahaha.
Okay give me time, i'll achieve my aim i promise.
With that, i sincerely hope i'll be a gym junkie after As. Gosh this sounds extremely exciting. OMG JUST THE THOUGHT OF LIKE WASHBOARD ABS AND LIKE A BIG CHEST AND LIKE NICE, BIG BICEPS ON MYYYYYYYYYYYY BODY IS INVIGORATING I SWEAR okay sorry this sounds gross but can you feel my excitement! HAHA.
But i do not ever want to be like those guys who are extremely big because c'mon, that is disgusting dude. Just toned, muscular but proportional please.
Hahahaha okay enough i shall divert to another topic!
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Today's a good day! A fulfilling gym session with leah and jack and it was awesomezz cos like i think i did quite a lot and learnt alot of new stuffs.
After that, gx came and we went swimming! Leah left earlier cos she had a family dinner which started at like FOUR pm. Omgz who the hell eats dinner at 4 manzz her grandparents the best hahaha.
Swimming was fantabulous cos we had the pool to ourselves! Then i went to break fast and we had a nice talking session afterwhich!
Okay an account of a person's day is extremely not interesting you're probably drooling now TSKTSK
Any-o-way, tmr is extremely not exciting because i'm going to geylang to get stuffs for hari raya. I HATE THAT PLACE TO THE MAX, WORST PLACE EVER I SWEAR.
Bleargh but before that, my sister's gonna do her hair at the normal salon cos she has her own personal hairstylist. And she agreed to sponsor me for a haircut there (:
Okay i think i should get some sleep laterssssss.
You can be a miracle, yourself.
As you may or may not know, prelims are over! I don't know if i should rejoice and feel eggcited over it, because the truth is, i don't.
I know i've not put in my best, and i do feel a tinge of regret.
I had a long conversation with a good friend, atiqah ho xy, before chem paper 1, and i recalled this phrase which she said, ''I hate regrets. I'd rather give my all and know that i've done my best. Even if things don't work out, i'm satisfied."
Aww how i wish i have that power within me to mutter those words. And, i obviously don't, at the moment.
I really really really hope i'll give my everything for As because doing well means a whole world to me.
I don't mind if it takes away my freedom, time, soul, anything. I don't mind if it robs me of my fantasies, desires, anything. I don't mind if i have to sacrifice this, that, you-name-me-anything.
I just want As(i don't mind Bs too!) because that's all that matter now. And, i never, ever want to live in regret because i don't think i can ever stomach that risk.
Oh God, help me )))):
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So after the last paper, i went to Sentosa with jerm sal and yuan! It's like a ghost town at night, but it's pretty serene and tranquil. We all concurred that it was a vv fun outing :D (and sal is the awesome photographer for the pictures)
in a place where
everything is transient
and ever-changing
a veil unleashes its torrent
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because we can't afford to seek refuge anymore
nothing's safe and secure,
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like an innocent child with plaids,
grow a seed which blossoms
and let it grow
without the murky waters
let it shine
with an exterior so strong
impervious and hard;
your saviour
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Love you guys!
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I'm excited for tomorrow(more to later) cos i'll be going to the gym followed by a swimming session! And, i'm still fasting yo so that makes it a challenge but i'll persevere and endure and i swear i won't break my fast earlier than the stipulated time.
My elder bro is a joke. He was asking me to help him with his poetry essay for his lit assignment. It was something about mortality and he wanted me to make it more analytical.
I didn't really dare to help much because 1) it's University level 2) i've never taken lit ever, except when i was in sec 1 and 2 and it was compulsory 3) i only understood one poem(which i thought was v interesting) 4) i don't want to sound stupid 5) i'm not good full stop.
I can't wait for mondayyyyy, movie and shopping with lovely jerm one of the bestest friends on earth, love you babe! :D
I know i've not put in my best, and i do feel a tinge of regret.
I had a long conversation with a good friend, atiqah ho xy, before chem paper 1, and i recalled this phrase which she said, ''I hate regrets. I'd rather give my all and know that i've done my best. Even if things don't work out, i'm satisfied."
Aww how i wish i have that power within me to mutter those words. And, i obviously don't, at the moment.
I really really really hope i'll give my everything for As because doing well means a whole world to me.
I don't mind if it takes away my freedom, time, soul, anything. I don't mind if it robs me of my fantasies, desires, anything. I don't mind if i have to sacrifice this, that, you-name-me-anything.
I just want As(i don't mind Bs too!) because that's all that matter now. And, i never, ever want to live in regret because i don't think i can ever stomach that risk.
Oh God, help me )))):
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So after the last paper, i went to Sentosa with jerm sal and yuan! It's like a ghost town at night, but it's pretty serene and tranquil. We all concurred that it was a vv fun outing :D (and sal is the awesome photographer for the pictures)
in a place where
everything is transient
and ever-changing
a veil unleashes its torrent
.jpg)
because we can't afford to seek refuge anymore
nothing's safe and secure,
not even the old cupboard; your hiding place when you were young
or the blankets; because the darkness evades you
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like an innocent child with plaids,
grow a seed which blossoms
and let it grow
without the murky waters
let it shine
with an exterior so strong
impervious and hard;
your saviour
.jpg)
Love you guys!
---
I'm excited for tomorrow(more to later) cos i'll be going to the gym followed by a swimming session! And, i'm still fasting yo so that makes it a challenge but i'll persevere and endure and i swear i won't break my fast earlier than the stipulated time.
My elder bro is a joke. He was asking me to help him with his poetry essay for his lit assignment. It was something about mortality and he wanted me to make it more analytical.
I didn't really dare to help much because 1) it's University level 2) i've never taken lit ever, except when i was in sec 1 and 2 and it was compulsory 3) i only understood one poem(which i thought was v interesting) 4) i don't want to sound stupid 5) i'm not good full stop.
I can't wait for mondayyyyy, movie and shopping with lovely jerm one of the bestest friends on earth, love you babe! :D
Friday, September 19, 2008
I need an aim, desperately.
I had an inspirational conversation with jack earlier on. And, it really made me feel that if you have the spirit and determination, anything is possible. Focus is the man.
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
i also realise that only being a successful man will get what he wants
it's time to says:
it's nt too late
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
hopefully
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
even if its too late
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
im gonna do this anw
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
no point feeling disappointed for nt getting wat I want rite
it's time to says:
omg i feel motivated
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
i cant get becoz im nt a winner
it's time to says:
i hate the word regret
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
SO I'M GONNA BE A WINNER THIS TIME
it's time to says:
all the way!!
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
I WILL BE THE ONE WHO DECIDES THE WINNER
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
IM NO LONGER THE PERSON WHO WILL BE DECIDED BY OTHERS
it's time to says:
eh are you like a part-time motivational speaker or something?
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
FOR THIS TO HPPN
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
A LVL HERE I COME!
This part is the ultimate.(anyway i think i responded very incongruously above)
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
i want to be a winner this time
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
a winner for my parents
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
a winner for my teachers
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
a winner for my siblings
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
and a winner for my friends
Another part.
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
if sch reopen
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
u see me lyk v stress or wat
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
nv tell me to relax k
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
juz ignore
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
pity is not allowed for my 4A star plan
I don't know how you'd respond to it but i swear i felt inspired. That kind of determination to accomplish something is v enriching and compelling.
Keep it up bro, you'll go far with this attitude.
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
i also realise that only being a successful man will get what he wants
it's time to says:
it's nt too late
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
hopefully
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
even if its too late
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
im gonna do this anw
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
no point feeling disappointed for nt getting wat I want rite
it's time to says:
omg i feel motivated
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
i cant get becoz im nt a winner
it's time to says:
i hate the word regret
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
SO I'M GONNA BE A WINNER THIS TIME
it's time to says:
all the way!!
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
I WILL BE THE ONE WHO DECIDES THE WINNER
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
IM NO LONGER THE PERSON WHO WILL BE DECIDED BY OTHERS
it's time to says:
eh are you like a part-time motivational speaker or something?
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
FOR THIS TO HPPN
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
A LVL HERE I COME!
This part is the ultimate.(anyway i think i responded very incongruously above)
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
i want to be a winner this time
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
a winner for my parents
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
a winner for my teachers
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
a winner for my siblings
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
and a winner for my friends
Another part.
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
if sch reopen
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
u see me lyk v stress or wat
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
nv tell me to relax k
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
juz ignore
jackPECKalltheway@hotmail.com says:
pity is not allowed for my 4A star plan
I don't know how you'd respond to it but i swear i felt inspired. That kind of determination to accomplish something is v enriching and compelling.
Keep it up bro, you'll go far with this attitude.
Monday, September 15, 2008
Serious awakening.
I think, to think that you have time is a crime.
Just to have that thought is brutal in itself.
It's fatal.
Just to have that thought is brutal in itself.
It's fatal.
What an experience!
i don't feel accomplished. the voice within says i can do so much better, i know i can. it's just that .... the voice's failing me.
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Tennis on saturday with leah jack and law the bombz. And i bought my shorts before that and it was the fastest shopping ever; go inside, try, buy. Cos i was late and the whole session had to be delayed by an hour. ):
OH anyway i think i can't study at home and saturday was like tennis-go home-sleep-never study.
In an attempt to salvage the situation, i joined minshan and xinhui to study at woodlands civic library yesterday!
And, i was traumatised.
I DIDN'T KNOW STUDYING WAS SO COOL. AND LIKE, IT'S THE HOTTEST TREND AROUND.
As early as 9 plus, a large group of people were guarding the entrance in order to secure good seats for themselves. And, some were even sitting on the floor while waiting for the door to be opened. omgz
And as soon as the automatic door opened, EVERYONE WAS LIKE GUSHING IN AS THOUGH THERE WERE LIKE 6789542 OUNCES OF GOLD ON THE OTHER SIDE.
THEY LITERALLY RAN TO GET THEIR SEATS OKAY OMGZ.
They can't be any more kiasu than that, can they?
Minshan said she've seen worst cases before, like a v long queue which lasted BEYOND woodlands civic centre's entrance. Like, till out of the entire building itself. HAHAHA FUNNY MUGGERS.
With that, i conclude. Singaporeans study way too much, and so much more than what is appropriate for them.
Have a break, have a kit kat.
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Tennis on saturday with leah jack and law the bombz. And i bought my shorts before that and it was the fastest shopping ever; go inside, try, buy. Cos i was late and the whole session had to be delayed by an hour. ):
OH anyway i think i can't study at home and saturday was like tennis-go home-sleep-never study.
In an attempt to salvage the situation, i joined minshan and xinhui to study at woodlands civic library yesterday!
And, i was traumatised.
I DIDN'T KNOW STUDYING WAS SO COOL. AND LIKE, IT'S THE HOTTEST TREND AROUND.
As early as 9 plus, a large group of people were guarding the entrance in order to secure good seats for themselves. And, some were even sitting on the floor while waiting for the door to be opened. omgz
And as soon as the automatic door opened, EVERYONE WAS LIKE GUSHING IN AS THOUGH THERE WERE LIKE 6789542 OUNCES OF GOLD ON THE OTHER SIDE.
THEY LITERALLY RAN TO GET THEIR SEATS OKAY OMGZ.
They can't be any more kiasu than that, can they?
Minshan said she've seen worst cases before, like a v long queue which lasted BEYOND woodlands civic centre's entrance. Like, till out of the entire building itself. HAHAHA FUNNY MUGGERS.
With that, i conclude. Singaporeans study way too much, and so much more than what is appropriate for them.
Have a break, have a kit kat.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
:DDDDDDDDDDD
HELLO I AM SO INDIFFERENT ABOUT PRELIMS )))):
I'm having math paper tmr yo at like EIGHT AM but i'm nowhere done with revision. I'll just pray and live in denial that i'll remember all the stuffs i've studied in school and previous revisions and they'll not leave my puny little brain. :DDDDD
Bpp with ming after econs and chem paper today was funny ttm cos i told her '"eh let's act like we're in an Amazing Race or something" and then we literally ran around NTUC like really really run to get my stuffs omg hilarious.
Then head home and watched teevee and talked to leah and she's extremely funny HAHAHAHA i mean like extremely funny like really really funny. Yay, i have tight abs(RELATIVE) now without doing much ha ha ha.
And our conversation just ended and it's gonna be midnight and i haven't finished math revision and there's like Janice Dickenson Modelling Agency now and i don't care i want to watch so BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Anyway i dreamt that i was Xiaxue's friend HAHAAHA omg the dream damn hilarious but my show's gonna be on soon so next time!
I'm having math paper tmr yo at like EIGHT AM but i'm nowhere done with revision. I'll just pray and live in denial that i'll remember all the stuffs i've studied in school and previous revisions and they'll not leave my puny little brain. :DDDDD
Bpp with ming after econs and chem paper today was funny ttm cos i told her '"eh let's act like we're in an Amazing Race or something" and then we literally ran around NTUC like really really run to get my stuffs omg hilarious.
Then head home and watched teevee and talked to leah and she's extremely funny HAHAHAHA i mean like extremely funny like really really funny. Yay, i have tight abs(RELATIVE) now without doing much ha ha ha.
And our conversation just ended and it's gonna be midnight and i haven't finished math revision and there's like Janice Dickenson Modelling Agency now and i don't care i want to watch so BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Anyway i dreamt that i was Xiaxue's friend HAHAAHA omg the dream damn hilarious but my show's gonna be on soon so next time!
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Why the hell do i care about cold war, religious fundamentalism, etc? I DON'T.
Oh shit i'm distracted again rahhhhhhhhhhhh i'm so sorry )))))))):
Am talking to ali now, an old mate who is freaking hilarious he cracks me up hahahaah.
Okay i'm just having a random thought:
Why do i refuse to be attached?
1) I'm extremely lazy to be committed.
2) I'm extremely lazy to send her home like omg go home yourself please.
3 ) I refuse to pamper her - i rather pamper myself.
4) I refuse to buy gifts and shop for her - omg seriously, i rather shop for myself. look at my shopping list!
5) Her menses period - disaster.
OMG I'M NOT MCP-ISH OR AN UN-GENTLEMAN OKAY. That in itself, is not a convincing statement but i shall back that up with some of my internationally-recognised theories and school of thoughts soon.
Hahahaha okay okay history now now now
Am talking to ali now, an old mate who is freaking hilarious he cracks me up hahahaah.
Okay i'm just having a random thought:
Why do i refuse to be attached?
1) I'm extremely lazy to be committed.
2) I'm extremely lazy to send her home like omg go home yourself please.
3 ) I refuse to pamper her - i rather pamper myself.
4) I refuse to buy gifts and shop for her - omg seriously, i rather shop for myself. look at my shopping list!
5) Her menses period - disaster.
OMG I'M NOT MCP-ISH OR AN UN-GENTLEMAN OKAY. That in itself, is not a convincing statement but i shall back that up with some of my internationally-recognised theories and school of thoughts soon.
Hahahaha okay okay history now now now
go go go
I have an extremely painful backache and i don't know why shit am i going to die or something omgz save meeeeeeeeeeee
I wanted to rant but then again, who cares if you rant like your whole life? Life still has to move on, and you still have to overcome the source of your rant right huh huh huh?
So, i shall shut up and study NOW too much time is wasted today. Too much too much, Operation 'Dig your own grave till you rot and die' has started like omg since yesteryear.
IT MUST STOP NOW and i shall shower some TLC to my wonderful history notes which i've missed too much, it has been too clean, way too clean.
I SHALL NOT BE DISTRACTED I SHALL MEMORISE HISTORY SHITZZZ TILL I DREAM OF SOME HOT HISTORIAN OMG EXCITING GO GO GO GO GO
I wanted to rant but then again, who cares if you rant like your whole life? Life still has to move on, and you still have to overcome the source of your rant right huh huh huh?
So, i shall shut up and study NOW too much time is wasted today. Too much too much, Operation 'Dig your own grave till you rot and die' has started like omg since yesteryear.
IT MUST STOP NOW and i shall shower some TLC to my wonderful history notes which i've missed too much, it has been too clean, way too clean.
I SHALL NOT BE DISTRACTED I SHALL MEMORISE HISTORY SHITZZZ TILL I DREAM OF SOME HOT HISTORIAN OMG EXCITING GO GO GO GO GO
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Hush hush, spin, snap.
I don't know where i'm heading to.
And, if i'm what i'm doing is right.
I don't know if those words were the truth, because they sounded so easy and simple, it's like as though they don't mean a thing, it's like as though they were insignificant and ... trivial, for the lack of a better word.
It sounds like a sweeping statement, a plain remark that you'd throw at a bag, that ball which stays motionless and still, that fan that spins incessantly - trying to gain speed and momentum along the way.
That insignificant thing. Oh, insignificant.
It's like you're living in another entity, a place which you don't belong - but strangely familiar, and awkwardly you.
You just can't run away.
And, if i'm what i'm doing is right.
I don't know if those words were the truth, because they sounded so easy and simple, it's like as though they don't mean a thing, it's like as though they were insignificant and ... trivial, for the lack of a better word.
It sounds like a sweeping statement, a plain remark that you'd throw at a bag, that ball which stays motionless and still, that fan that spins incessantly - trying to gain speed and momentum along the way.
That insignificant thing. Oh, insignificant.
It's like you're living in another entity, a place which you don't belong - but strangely familiar, and awkwardly you.
You just can't run away.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Scream.
1 2 3 4 6 7 8 9 10 eyes straight up.
i don't want any mistakes there hear me?
shoulders back, posture straight, don't smile, fierce face.
yes, that look. that something in your eyes. no, not quite. i want more, more, more, yes that. okay no that's too much, relax abit, okay that.
now do your thing and don't walk back.
i don't want any mistakes there hear me?
shoulders back, posture straight, don't smile, fierce face.
yes, that look. that something in your eyes. no, not quite. i want more, more, more, yes that. okay no that's too much, relax abit, okay that.
now do your thing and don't walk back.
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