I've been trying to find a new blogskins but i can't find any for like the last hour! And it's extremely irritating when i still typed 'white plain skins' and all i got was those lovey-dovey, romantic-kind with mushy words OR those damn emo kind wth OR 'this is my life, i rule it' like RIGHTTTTTTTTT.
What's up with all these love, emo notions in a freaking skin you loser shit. I SAID I WANTED 'WHITE PLAIN SKINS' is that like REALLY HARD TO FIGURE OUT tsktsk which part of the plain or white words you don't understand?
Nvm nvm, I'll give you a crash course. FOC!
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I'm extremely lazy to work out at home like i wonder where's my drive for a hot bod gone to? Fuckfuckfuck not cool not cool not cool. Okay, let's see if my gym session in a conventional gym later is better. If i'm still as lazy as i am at home, then .... omg that is VERY BAD. And a swim after gym later! I hope the sun is not like piercing kind of hot omg no no please i don't want to get tanned
OKAY I SHALL APPLY LIKE A BOTTLE OF SUNBLOCK IF THE SITUATION CALLS FOR IT.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
HI.
Sentosa today, and a very bad one cos jerm's dslr was in low batt and we couldn't do a proper photoshoot. That sucks, more than anything else.
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There's a crack in everything;
that's how the light gets in.
Flaws. Insecurities. I'm-not-good-enough. That-person-is-so-much-hotter-AND-smarter. Unsatisfaction. Disappointment.
Flaws. Insecurities. Flaws. Flaws. Flaws. Insecurities. Inflawsecurities.
Sounds too familiar?
I'm a walking bundle of them.
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There's a crack in everything;
that's how the light gets in.
Flaws. Insecurities. I'm-not-good-enough. That-person-is-so-much-hotter-AND-smarter. Unsatisfaction. Disappointment.
Flaws. Insecurities. Flaws. Flaws. Flaws. Insecurities. Inflawsecurities.
Sounds too familiar?
I'm a walking bundle of them.
Monday, November 24, 2008
A book review, but i feel like a preacher.
Today was quite fruitful, atiqah ho and i went to look for some jobs which we apparently got, but i'm not sure if i wanna take it up. Pictures will be up soon.
she was wearing this really high heels, whining(okay i don't blame her at all cos she just bought it), was in extreme pain so she had to like change footwear halfway through hahaha. while waiting for her to go home and change yadayada, she lent me this novel to read and it was very very interesting. it was unputdownable, and i finished it cos thank God it wasn't really thick.
the book was really simple, no glamourfied vocabs no cheem-ish words, just simple plain english. but the meaning behind it was indeed very profound. it really dawned upon me how someone can write so beautifully, yet the words are filled with so much wisdom.
actually the main idea of the book was that only God can give us the pure feeling of fulfillment; this satisfaction that we feel only after we have found the true meaning in life, and a deeper meaning in our souls - then, we can truly be happy, fulfilled and satisfied.
that idea was amazing. like we may observe how even the rich may have all the wealth one can ever ask for, and we may see how euphoric and glamorous they may be, but think again - are they really happy and fully satisfied just simply with loads of moolahs?
i don't think so.
herein comes the point where God makes a whole load of difference. He gives us the true feeling of satisfaction and fulfillment, but it is only achieved if we are willing to open up to possibilities that He exist, and believe that He definitely wants the best for us in every single thing that we do.
so if you are an atheist, i'm sure you know this fact that deep inside, you are lacking something; just something you can't quite explain nor understand, but it sure does impact your life, happiness and freedom in more ways than one.
then, what are you waiting for, friend? stop searching high and low for it, for the answer is just right in front of you - you just have to grab it. God has been there, always has been and always will. so as you strive to find your deeper meaning in life, don't hesistate to build a personal relationship with God. you won't regret, never.
also, i like the idea(doesn't mean i agree) where one of the characters hated religion (NOT THAT I HATE RELIGION SHEESH I LOVE MINE TTM FYI). he hates it because he thinks religion endorses conformity. religions entail our actions - we're supposed to do this, not that; act like this, not that; respond in this manner, not that.
but eventually, all this external acts do not matter because it is what within that matters. WAH i love this reasoning i swear. c'mon let's not look far, let's mention examples in singapore context. look at the Venerable whateverhisnameis(I FORGOT) of the Ren Ci Hospital. look at what he did. look at how he totally did not practise what he preached. look at how obviously he will tell people to do this and that(obviously he can, and does it, due to his designation). look at how this holds testimony to the fact that eventually no matter how religious you may sound, act or claim to be, still, it is what within that matters.
but of course, i totally respect what my religion instructs me to do - because i understand the reasoning behind it and it is totally for my own good.
also, the idea of conformity in a religion may not entirely be compelling. i guess if you conform or do something that you're supposed to do(religious acts), because it is advantageous to you and even your society(your religious group), i doubt that is a negative thing afterall. to argue against this, if you conform but you have no idea why you are doing this, or because you know you have to but then you don't really understand the crux of the whole action, then i'll call you a victim of what i label this syndrome as a 'brainless forced conformity'. like c'mon man, figure that out first will you - you'll appreciate what you're doing, more. much much more.
right, whatever it is. just believe in God. and this is just my 2 cents' worth. (:
she was wearing this really high heels, whining(okay i don't blame her at all cos she just bought it), was in extreme pain so she had to like change footwear halfway through hahaha. while waiting for her to go home and change yadayada, she lent me this novel to read and it was very very interesting. it was unputdownable, and i finished it cos thank God it wasn't really thick.
the book was really simple, no glamourfied vocabs no cheem-ish words, just simple plain english. but the meaning behind it was indeed very profound. it really dawned upon me how someone can write so beautifully, yet the words are filled with so much wisdom.
actually the main idea of the book was that only God can give us the pure feeling of fulfillment; this satisfaction that we feel only after we have found the true meaning in life, and a deeper meaning in our souls - then, we can truly be happy, fulfilled and satisfied.
that idea was amazing. like we may observe how even the rich may have all the wealth one can ever ask for, and we may see how euphoric and glamorous they may be, but think again - are they really happy and fully satisfied just simply with loads of moolahs?
i don't think so.
herein comes the point where God makes a whole load of difference. He gives us the true feeling of satisfaction and fulfillment, but it is only achieved if we are willing to open up to possibilities that He exist, and believe that He definitely wants the best for us in every single thing that we do.
so if you are an atheist, i'm sure you know this fact that deep inside, you are lacking something; just something you can't quite explain nor understand, but it sure does impact your life, happiness and freedom in more ways than one.
then, what are you waiting for, friend? stop searching high and low for it, for the answer is just right in front of you - you just have to grab it. God has been there, always has been and always will. so as you strive to find your deeper meaning in life, don't hesistate to build a personal relationship with God. you won't regret, never.
also, i like the idea(doesn't mean i agree) where one of the characters hated religion (NOT THAT I HATE RELIGION SHEESH I LOVE MINE TTM FYI). he hates it because he thinks religion endorses conformity. religions entail our actions - we're supposed to do this, not that; act like this, not that; respond in this manner, not that.
but eventually, all this external acts do not matter because it is what within that matters. WAH i love this reasoning i swear. c'mon let's not look far, let's mention examples in singapore context. look at the Venerable whateverhisnameis(I FORGOT) of the Ren Ci Hospital. look at what he did. look at how he totally did not practise what he preached. look at how obviously he will tell people to do this and that(obviously he can, and does it, due to his designation). look at how this holds testimony to the fact that eventually no matter how religious you may sound, act or claim to be, still, it is what within that matters.
but of course, i totally respect what my religion instructs me to do - because i understand the reasoning behind it and it is totally for my own good.
also, the idea of conformity in a religion may not entirely be compelling. i guess if you conform or do something that you're supposed to do(religious acts), because it is advantageous to you and even your society(your religious group), i doubt that is a negative thing afterall. to argue against this, if you conform but you have no idea why you are doing this, or because you know you have to but then you don't really understand the crux of the whole action, then i'll call you a victim of what i label this syndrome as a 'brainless forced conformity'. like c'mon man, figure that out first will you - you'll appreciate what you're doing, more. much much more.
right, whatever it is. just believe in God. and this is just my 2 cents' worth. (:
Saturday, November 22, 2008
OMG I LOVE JUNO(acTuaLLy aM gOiNg tO waTch IT oNLY nOW hE hE hE)
I KNOW. JUNO WAS LIKE LAST YEAR OR SOMETHING(OKAY MAYBE THIS YEAR IDK)
and sadly, when it got screened in theatres, i didn't get hold of it due to unforeseen circumstances. HAH but i really want to catch it cos i heard it's good!
an alternative would be to watch it online but being the very scaredy scaredy cat person i am, i don't dare to watch movies online cos iii scaReDzx geTx cAugHtz!!!!!
so when han(i love you) told me just watch no one will catch me whateverrr i just trust her la HAHAHA i went to the website she told me and there were soooooo many movies(mY fIRst tIMez lEh iiI exCitEd) and i'm really not a movie junkie so like none interest me and then scroll down down down OMG JUNO and i'm like omg click click click juno baybeh
YAY thank God i get to watch Juno before i die! hahaha okay i think it's done uploading i hope it won't disappoint me after like knowing how many awesome reviews it got :D IT BETTER BE GOOD
p/s : while i'm typing nic just called my crib and she sounds exactly like my best friend(whom i missed alot) and i'm like who's this and she goes like i'm your hot and sexy friend hahaha sheesh her trademark righttttttt this is as random as it gets
and sadly, when it got screened in theatres, i didn't get hold of it due to unforeseen circumstances. HAH but i really want to catch it cos i heard it's good!
an alternative would be to watch it online but being the very scaredy scaredy cat person i am, i don't dare to watch movies online cos iii scaReDzx geTx cAugHtz!!!!!
so when han(i love you) told me just watch no one will catch me whateverrr i just trust her la HAHAHA i went to the website she told me and there were soooooo many movies(mY fIRst tIMez lEh iiI exCitEd) and i'm really not a movie junkie so like none interest me and then scroll down down down OMG JUNO and i'm like omg click click click juno baybeh
YAY thank God i get to watch Juno before i die! hahaha okay i think it's done uploading i hope it won't disappoint me after like knowing how many awesome reviews it got :D IT BETTER BE GOOD
p/s : while i'm typing nic just called my crib and she sounds exactly like my best friend(whom i missed alot) and i'm like who's this and she goes like i'm your hot and sexy friend hahaha sheesh her trademark righttttttt this is as random as it gets
rant rant rant
I just came back and it's disgustingly early and i'm a nerd i went to the library to borrow some books but my card has like fines so i can't borrow wtf and then i borrowed my cousin's card and hers need some verification but she's not with me so i cant borrow any so again wtf
and singapore is damn boring i swear i want to elope with the sexiest person alive. and go somewhere hot like whatever paris milan OMG MALDIVES sexy
and i really am not sure if i should go clubbing with the sluts tonight cos i have other plans tooooooo and obviously clubbing = go home next morning = spoil other plans cos i'll sleep the whole day = SIGH )):
i'm going for some job shitz on mon AND I HOPE IT WILL WORK OUT i have like no job experience omg i've never worked before and i want to try and work for the first time! it better work out man
am planning now for meetups with nic and the others on tues AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO GO AND WHAT TO DO. singapore needs to work harder on this aspect, seriously. argh fuck i want to get out of singapore IT'S GETTING BORING HERE
okay i need to work out and like get a damn cleanser that works wonders for my face. i want a flawless skin and a hot bod thankyou
and singapore is damn boring i swear i want to elope with the sexiest person alive. and go somewhere hot like whatever paris milan OMG MALDIVES sexy
and i really am not sure if i should go clubbing with the sluts tonight cos i have other plans tooooooo and obviously clubbing = go home next morning = spoil other plans cos i'll sleep the whole day = SIGH )):
i'm going for some job shitz on mon AND I HOPE IT WILL WORK OUT i have like no job experience omg i've never worked before and i want to try and work for the first time! it better work out man
am planning now for meetups with nic and the others on tues AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO GO AND WHAT TO DO. singapore needs to work harder on this aspect, seriously. argh fuck i want to get out of singapore IT'S GETTING BORING HERE
okay i need to work out and like get a damn cleanser that works wonders for my face. i want a flawless skin and a hot bod thankyou
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Today's like BrotherDay.
My younger brother and i live-jammed at home and we played the guitar and sang at the top of our lungs and like we owned the world and i bet it was damn loud and my sis who just came back from barcelona or whatever was pissed but heck i don't care cos like we're having a cold war now and i doubt we'll talk ever again, and again i don't care so yesssssa.
And after that, i played skateboarding with him! (anw, both of my brothers are skateboarders/skaters). I used to be one too last time I KNOW DON'T LAUGH but that was like in primary school and it was mighty hilarious thinking about those times.
But i just felt like spending more time with my younger brother today and yes so we played! I could still get an Ollie but damn, i haven't fully mastered kickflip nor heelflip yet but whatever give me time man.
Man, i feel like skating again.
And after that, i played skateboarding with him! (anw, both of my brothers are skateboarders/skaters). I used to be one too last time I KNOW DON'T LAUGH but that was like in primary school and it was mighty hilarious thinking about those times.
But i just felt like spending more time with my younger brother today and yes so we played! I could still get an Ollie but damn, i haven't fully mastered kickflip nor heelflip yet but whatever give me time man.
Man, i feel like skating again.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Aloha.
Hello these are pictures taken yesterday from jermaine's slr but there's more and once she uploaded them i'll post it up here again :D
i think photography's cool, i wouldn't mind learning it seriously. OKAY OFF TO SAVOUR MY COCKLES SOUP.
nature's call,
the light's on you
sink within;
in those deep crevices
cos the pasture's,
greener on the other side
sunken, hunched;
powerless
the leaves;
they're raw
i think photography's cool, i wouldn't mind learning it seriously. OKAY OFF TO SAVOUR MY COCKLES SOUP.
nature's call,
the light's on you
sink within;
in those deep crevices
cos the pasture's,
greener on the other side
sunken, hunched;
powerless
the leaves;
they're raw
zzzZZZzzz
fuck you i just typed a very long entry and it's gone cos of some editing problem shitz like RIGHTTTTTTT.
GOOD JOB BLOGGER I LOVE YOU TILL THE END OF TIME. LET'S GET MARRIED AND PLEASE SAY "I DO". I'LL GET YOU THE PRETTIEST GOWN EVER WITH A 567890756789 CARAT DIAMOND RING AND WE'LL MARRY IN MAURITIUS WITH THE BEAUTIFUL BEACHES AND PEOPLE.
But you've been a bitch and even though you know how much i love bitches and sluts but I'M SORRY you are totally a different kind of bitch and you disgust me.
I WANT A DIVORCE.
GOOD JOB BLOGGER I LOVE YOU TILL THE END OF TIME. LET'S GET MARRIED AND PLEASE SAY "I DO". I'LL GET YOU THE PRETTIEST GOWN EVER WITH A 567890756789 CARAT DIAMOND RING AND WE'LL MARRY IN MAURITIUS WITH THE BEAUTIFUL BEACHES AND PEOPLE.
But you've been a bitch and even though you know how much i love bitches and sluts but I'M SORRY you are totally a different kind of bitch and you disgust me.
I WANT A DIVORCE.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Slipped by my fingers.
OMG AM I REALLY DONE WITH A'S?
Sheesh this is so weird. Okay rightttttttt i should like move on and be happy that i'm still alive from the torture.
It's about time i go out there on my own.
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OKAY i've been asked umpteen times how did A's go yadayadayada and generally i really don't think i'd do that well but i'll just leave it to Him. I think some papers were really hard and wait, maybe cos you think i tend to exaggerate, you would not believe me entirely.
So i shall rip some content from cheryl's blog, and since she's from rj, it's more credible huh huh huh.
hello cambridge,
if i could fly down to london england or whereever your snorty asses are now i would. and believe me, i think i would plant a bomb and send you anthrax of some sort. why must you decide to raise the standards so high this year? can't you old wrinkly old bastards go spend your time having a life instead?
right, so the a levels have been tough. where did the easy papers our seniors had, gone to? swear to god the papers this year are one helluva shithole, save chem, which thankgod was very doable. its funny how everyone says 'its the a levels, won't be so hard one la'.
BULLSHIT.
i think i should throw my tys out of the window for the nxt few papers. cos certainly, doing tys won't help cos the questions are way too hard now. today i did math with W at starbucks and he was telling me how the smartest pple in his jc were crying after the bio paper. i'm thinking now, PLS LET THE BELL CURVE BE SOME SORT OF MIRACLE.
better be,. or we're pretty much screwed aren't we?
Okay, you got the picture now.
Sheesh this is so weird. Okay rightttttttt i should like move on and be happy that i'm still alive from the torture.
It's about time i go out there on my own.
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OKAY i've been asked umpteen times how did A's go yadayadayada and generally i really don't think i'd do that well but i'll just leave it to Him. I think some papers were really hard and wait, maybe cos you think i tend to exaggerate, you would not believe me entirely.
So i shall rip some content from cheryl's blog, and since she's from rj, it's more credible huh huh huh.
hello cambridge,
if i could fly down to london england or whereever your snorty asses are now i would. and believe me, i think i would plant a bomb and send you anthrax of some sort. why must you decide to raise the standards so high this year? can't you old wrinkly old bastards go spend your time having a life instead?
right, so the a levels have been tough. where did the easy papers our seniors had, gone to? swear to god the papers this year are one helluva shithole, save chem, which thankgod was very doable. its funny how everyone says 'its the a levels, won't be so hard one la'.
BULLSHIT.
i think i should throw my tys out of the window for the nxt few papers. cos certainly, doing tys won't help cos the questions are way too hard now. today i did math with W at starbucks and he was telling me how the smartest pple in his jc were crying after the bio paper. i'm thinking now, PLS LET THE BELL CURVE BE SOME SORT OF MIRACLE.
better be,. or we're pretty much screwed aren't we?
Okay, you got the picture now.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
I need to hit the gymmmmmmmmmmmmmandswimthengymmmmmmmmmmm
i refuse to sleep though i feel tired cos i don't know why either and i'm actually v bored. and now i think it's pretty absurd how i can like go online for like close to 12 hours straight previously cos i really don't know what i should do nowwwwww
OKAY AND I REFUSE TO TALK ABOUT A LEVELS AND THE PROCESS THAT I WENT THROUGH BECAUSE RECOLLECTING SUCH MEMORIES WOULD NOT GET ME A BETTER GRADE WOULD IT?
That being said, it's definitely all up to Him to decide and i'll just pray hard for His blessings upon my grades.
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AND NOW I HAVE SO MUCH TIME TO SPARE I WANT TO FULLY EXPLOIT MY 24 HOURS. tsktsk RIGHTTTTT
am re-watching Mia Michael's routines like a million times and i'm moved to tears like a million and three times. She's superb beyond description and she inspires me to pursue contemp but i'm freaking enlisted on the fucking 6th and so i cant take any dance lessons what an ass.
Okay i don't know what to do tmrrrrr like should i go to east coast/sentosa, townnnnnn, tea partyyyyyyy, I DON'T KNOW and i have to decide like vvv soon.
Omg it's gonna be four i should sleep and like sleep peacefullyyyyyyyyyy, please.
OKAY AND I REFUSE TO TALK ABOUT A LEVELS AND THE PROCESS THAT I WENT THROUGH BECAUSE RECOLLECTING SUCH MEMORIES WOULD NOT GET ME A BETTER GRADE WOULD IT?
That being said, it's definitely all up to Him to decide and i'll just pray hard for His blessings upon my grades.
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AND NOW I HAVE SO MUCH TIME TO SPARE I WANT TO FULLY EXPLOIT MY 24 HOURS. tsktsk RIGHTTTTT
am re-watching Mia Michael's routines like a million times and i'm moved to tears like a million and three times. She's superb beyond description and she inspires me to pursue contemp but i'm freaking enlisted on the fucking 6th and so i cant take any dance lessons what an ass.
Okay i don't know what to do tmrrrrr like should i go to east coast/sentosa, townnnnnn, tea partyyyyyyy, I DON'T KNOW and i have to decide like vvv soon.
Omg it's gonna be four i should sleep and like sleep peacefullyyyyyyyyyy, please.
HELLO A'S IS OVERRRRRRRRRR.
okay i shall forget how surreal i felt just now, when the invigilator said, "stop shading anymore. the time is up".
i swear i felt like ''that's it? i'm done? and no more mugging for like 2 years?".
OMG THIS IS VERY SURREAL. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M DONE WITH THIS.
AND LIKE I CAN FINALLY SAY 'SHEESH A LEVEL WAS SOOOOOOO YESTERDAY'.
okay i shall forget how surreal i felt just now, when the invigilator said, "stop shading anymore. the time is up".
i swear i felt like ''that's it? i'm done? and no more mugging for like 2 years?".
OMG THIS IS VERY SURREAL. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M DONE WITH THIS.
AND LIKE I CAN FINALLY SAY 'SHEESH A LEVEL WAS SOOOOOOO YESTERDAY'.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
omgz i miss readingg sexy novels )))))))):
hello i'm in the midst of exams!
sheesh i cant wait for it to end and like so that i can go gym and swim and get a hot bod and then do whatever till i want but it's only till the 6th cos I'M ENLISTED ALREADY.
bummer till cannot be more bummer,
and i think i need to stop being anal about grades. okay i shall not overfocus on grades. learn to let go, study hard and just do it!
pray for me :D
sheesh i cant wait for it to end and like so that i can go gym and swim and get a hot bod and then do whatever till i want but it's only till the 6th cos I'M ENLISTED ALREADY.
bummer till cannot be more bummer,
and i think i need to stop being anal about grades. okay i shall not overfocus on grades. learn to let go, study hard and just do it!
pray for me :D
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